Sudah beberapa tahun ini saya berhenti menonton film-film mikir. Dan itu artinya saya juga sudah berhenti menonton (hampir) semua film pemenang Oscar. Movies affect me very much. Kalau itu film-film mikir dan cenderung punya storyline yang membuat depresi, maka saya akan mikir berhari-hari dan bahkan sampai ke fase gloomy. Sejak mengalami PPD, saya sebisa mungkin menghindari pencetus depresi yang bisa membuat saya babak belur. Sekarang ini saya cuma mau nonton film ringan ringan yang sekali nonton kelar enggak kepikir lagi. Untung saya masih tahan baca buku serius dan mikir, karena kalau enggak, man, secetek apa nanti diri ini hehehe…
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Age
Age is Like a Fine Wine
I often hear that aging should be like fine wine -that you should get better with age. Unfortunately I can’t say anything about the wine. I’ve never had one in my life. But…do I get better with age?
I doubt it… 😀
So, the thing is, exactly last month was my birthday.
I used to feel birthday blues whenever my birthday approaching. The cycle is quite similar every year. I would anticipate the coming of March. And then I would feel nervous when the day was approaching. When the Day finally came, I was like really really confused of what to feel. Should I feel happy? Should I feel grateful? Should I feel sad (because…you know…getting older?)? When I didn’t feel any of those things -because come on birthday is just another Monday or Tuesday or Friday- I would feel soooo bad. Then came the birthday blues.
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